M4M - Taller Guy

I just got back from my trip yesterday and met this guy that I have been communicating with online and via text messages. He has shown his interested for a long time ago, but somehow I didn't feel like meeting him. But then he was very persistent about asking me for a date, and finally I accepted. So we arranged to meet yesterday at my place, for I did not want to go anywhere outside of my house. One, I just got back from the trip, and two, it's too cold to go out.

So he came over. We just hung out and talked. There were many things that we have in common - gym, club, web design, gay movies lol... but I just cannot see myself being with him. It's a subtle feeling. I am not that attracted to him. I meant I saw his photo before and I liked it, but I would have never expected that in person is otherwise. I knew that he was interested in me according to his actions leaning towards me, touching my feet, sweet talking me, etc.

Now it's leaving me with thoughts about what to do if he would ask me out again. It seems to me that he wants relationship more than friendship. I'd rather be friends than lovers with him. He is a little bit tall for me and very goofy, but this is not as important as the fact that I am just not into his masculinity. He's not fem or anything, just not what I expected.

Ugh...... it has to be this way all the time. The ones that I am attracted to don't like me lol, but the ones that I am not attracted to come along all the time.